T-shirt Pillowcase

One of my biggest problems after my husband leaves is having trouble falling asleep! I am sooo used to having to share a tiny little bed with him, so used to his scent, the feeling of having him next to me, that when he's gone, it takes me literally hours to finally trick my mind into falling asleep. Bedtime is the moment I feel most lonely & him being gone really hits me. Even if you make it through the day with a gold star, bedtime still kicks your ass...
I've recently come up with a solution. One of my husband's t-shirts that he insists on wearing, though it's completely falling apart, I have since turned into a pillowcase. I know this may sound a little weird to some, but I swear it totally helps! I cut his t-shirt & sewed it onto a pillowcase & then sprayed it with axe (his artificial sent) & I make sure it's next to me every night. I'm sure you can do something like multiple parts to a t-shirt & make it look "quilted", but just make sure you don't go crazy & your man still has some shirts to come home to. ;)
It's just something comforting that I have found that works for me. :)

Something I forgot...

I forgot how nice it was just to have a picnic at the beach & play with my son on the playground. We walked around the park & walked by the water & looked at the fish. It was wonderful. If you have the opportunity to do this! DO IT! You forget for a minute how much you miss your man!

Just not the same

I swear I am so depressed when my husband is gone. I'm not even close to the same person I am when he's around. I can't imagine what it's going to be like when he deploys. I can't even handle 3 weeks of training. How am I going to handle a year? I don't know if it's a good or bad thing to love someone this much. I need to be able to fully function on my own. I just really want him to be proud of me & what I accomplish while he's gone. This kind of puts a lot of pressure on me too. I want to be perfect & when he is home I want to make him extremely happy. I feel like a wreck right now & I know I'm not even making much sense. I feel bad for my son. We don't do much together anymore. I feel like I have so much to do, but no energy or motivation to get up & do it. I feel so lonely & useless right now. I think I would be better if I could hear my husband's voice, but I barely get a couple texts a night. Don't get me wrong I'm greatful for those texts, but I'm craving his voice! It really does take an absence to truly realize just how much someone means to you.

Starting tomorrow I need to start being more active & more positive. I can't let my husband's absence ruin me. He wouldn't want that. I need to be stronger for my son too. That poor baby has done nothing for days. I feel like a terrible wife & mom. I need to get out of this mood. I'll give myself until tomorrow morning & then that's it. Things have GOT to change & I'm the only one who has the power to do that...

First Day!

My husband has been getting on me about finding new hobbies & stuff to keep me busy while he's gone for training & eventually deployment; Here's the start of my effort to keep busy!
I'm newly married; 3 days to be exact. :) We have 2 kids (not together) & just got an apartment together. We've had so many big life changes these past few months of our lives & looking back these past months have felt like years. My goal for while my husband is away with the marines is to perfect my housewife skills & to get everything together to start my own home daycare. I'll also start my nanny job in a couple of weeks with a 2 year old & a newborn, so I'm hoping that will give me something to pour myself into as well as my kids & keep my mind off the countdown until my man returns!